wow im at school right now i i just got word that my relationship is over...all 1 and a half months of it. i never knew it was even comeing. i just feel so blindsided, oh well ill just get anothe boyfriend its not that hard for me. i guess ive suddenly became attractive this year, er something, cause ive had like 3 bfs this year alone, and so far this is the longest relationship ive had. but like i said, i feel so blindsided ive been off and on crying all day and i feel so bad i havent smiled ive just felt dead all day, and almost everyone is bringing it up over and over...and i just feel like crying every time its brought up. even the girl i h8ed because she liked my bf is being nice i feel so bad about being pissed at her...oh well its going to be all right...eventually right now i just feel like a zombie.
-I need a hug.








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ok i am giving free comissions due to my lack of inspiriation...and i am also contemplating on LEAVING da...due to the poll i put out. though the majority said i shouldnt leave i got really upset cause a person said they wouldnt miss my art...whick makes me feel that i dont belong here if my art is not apriciated... but im glad they were honest...another reason is cause noone has been talking to me on here! all ive been getting is journals! thats it! journals polls and news for about a month or so...and then on the rare comment i get i reply and they dont respond back...i just feel like i should leave...and if noone wants a comission its clear noone cares...and if forced to do so, i will leave. this may be one of the last journals i submit...if u even care.








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im sooooo excited 4 christmas!! and i will post a christmas pic on christmas eve 2 u all if i can, if i cant fit it in i will do it the day b4 er something. and nana goted me a supprise! lol thats exciting cause prettymuch i know everything im getting, not much just a few things. im excited! im getting 2 games for my DS and 2 games 4 my WII and a new hair strightener, a near deathnote tee, and uhh...one of those DS lites. and im getting rid of my origional DS D; oh well, its day is done. any way thats about all im getting for christmas. its pretty much all i wanted im happy! and excited! and u r probably all going 2 et mad at me 4 telling u all this but i open all my gifts christmas eve, instead all on christmas day, nana said its like a norweagen thing...so basicly just open family gifts at night, then in the morning (when i was little) i opend the gifts from santa, and the stocking. but since nana and i have pretty much established that santa is not real and that when i saw him at the mall he is really just some random man who likes to play dress-up.lol but i still use my stocking, and nana still makes me open that on christmas day, but i can stay preoccupied till then.(: till these agonizing 3 days are over (probably 4 for u) i will be gawking at the tree and annoying nana to tell me what the supprise is.till i can open it christmas eve. <3 alligator

OH! BTW... my tablet will have its first birthday christmas eve this year, so wish it a happy birth day and a merry christmas!








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omg my wonderful watchers have herd about this stuff alot l8ly,but guess what...i have yet another bf. *yawn yes exciting i guess. ive had like 3 this year its like a record high.(for me at least) i went and perfprmed 4 concert band this evening.and the cute european twins my friend and i are stalking *cough cough WATCHING. i ment lol looked fabulous, lol i guess. like i said has new bf now. cant realy talk about other guys anymore.o well, i had fun at the concert and i was praying my name wouldnt be called when he mentioned all county, cause that would bring up all state! and of course my luck ran out and he did call my name after the next song after he mentioned all county and made me stand infront of the whole crowd alone, im so shy when im the ONLY one on stage, but ya i guess it wasnt that bad...im kinda tired right now...and im waiting 4 christmas 2 come so i can go see my family down south.well night all <3
~alligator








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well dumped my bf ...yup. found out he was flirting with other girls behind my back but what ev, i like this one guy waaaaay more anyway i also got a new hat n jacket! but my favorite jacket my gir jacket is no more. due to the fact it was becoming more of a sewing project and less of a jacket,, and since i dont feel like fixing every nitch n hole in it i gave it to a little girl who lives down the street cause she wanted it. kinda cause i added dog ears :/ but what ev the jacket i have now came with bunny ears ! and the hat is a kitty hat with hearts! so expect pictures! lol








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